Lunges and Squats

I meant to write this yesterday but didn't have the time. I do a fitness workout everyother day and in this workout is lunges and squats. I know this is a great way to get your legs and butt in shape but I really hate doing them. I don't know why..I just do. I don't have very good balance and I have to hold onto a wall or a post when I go down and come back up. Same thing with squats. I hate doing those too. However, I know that they too really help tone up your butt. Why do the things that work the best have to be such a pain in the butt..lol. The things we do to be beautiful and attractive. Just my two cents.

Baseball game weather

Goodnews. We finally got some rain. Bad news. It was during our first time going to see the Round Rock Express Baseball Team. Yesterday afternoon and this morning it rained. By 11 am it was done. So we decided to go ahead and go to the game. It started sprinkling as we turned into the parking lot. We had to trek about 10 minutes in the rain to our seats; which were in the rain. But there were sections under a canopy so we just moved there since no one was sitting in them. Katherine had a blast. She screamed and bood. Lauren did okay until we had been there about an hour. The rain had stopped about 2o minutes after us arriving but it was really humid. UGH. Well we had to leave around 8.30 due to the baby being fussy and it being a school night; I didn't want Katie up all night because then she'd be hard to get up. When we left, it was in the fourth inning and our team was winning 5-2. Have to check the news in the morning to see if they won. Let youall know later.

Makeup

I live in a city that is in constant spring and summer. We get maybe a week of cold. That being said..I don't understand how women can wear so much makeup when you have 100+ weather with 60+ humidity. I understand wanting to be a professional; but do you really need to layer your skin with so much crap? I do wear makeup on days my skin looks blotchy..i put on a little pit of pressed powder, mascara, and a light color of glazeware (avon); every now and then i will put on eyeshadow. I don't get women who put on concealer, foundation, powder, blush, eyeshadow (like 3 coats), masacara, lip liner, lipstick, and lip gloss. C'mon now. Is there really a need for all that? When you step out into the heat/humidity, your face is gonna melt off. Really. So why bother? Keep it light and simple. Maybe someone can help me understand this. When I see women out, and they are sweating, to me I think its gross to see the makeup sweating off their face. Talk about gross. Oh, and another thing...what's up with wearing makeup to go swimming or to go work out in? Working out on your lunch break is one thing or coming off work I understand. But to put makeup on to go to the gym? Or to go to the pool and sit in the sun? Someone help me understand that one please.

Something Fun

This is mine...I have 2 middle names and since I'm not married but soon will be i used both my maiden and my soon to be married name.
1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet and current street name) Conja Warner
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your moms side, your favorite candy) Viginia Hershey
3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two of your middle name)
NJA; NCA
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) Midnight Blue Dog
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Casper San Diego; Janet San Diego
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 2 letters of mom's maiden name and first 3 letters of the town you grew up in.
CHANAVALAS; UNDNAVALAS
7. Terrorist Name: (middle name spelled backwards, your last name spelled backwards)
Repsac Doowrednu; Repsac Sselbmahc; Tenaj Sselbmahc; Tenaj Doowrednu
8.SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, favorite drink)
The Midnight Blue Hawaiin

Katherine's: (It should be noted that favorite color, drink, candy and pet changes daily)
1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: Rose Warner
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: Gloria Wrigley Extra Watermellon
3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: KLE
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: Blue Killer Whale
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME:Lee Rockledge
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: Wilkaunaus
7. Terrorist Name: Eel Smailliw
8.SUPERHERO NAME: The Blue Koolaid

Micau's
Your Rock Star Name: Mr. Kitty Warner
Your Movie Star Name: Ray Symphony
Your Fly Guy Name: MJA
Your Detective Name: Navy Blue Cat
Your Soap Opera Name: James Honolulu
Your Star Wars Name: Chamilubee
Terroist Name: Semaj Sselbmahc
Superhero Name: The Blue Rum Coke

The Talk and Ears Pierced

Yep. I had the talk with my daughter. Since she will be ten soon, I decided to talk to her about having a period and test her knowledge of sex and babies. I feel as if it went in one ear and out the other. I got a book to help discuss it with her but its as if she just wasn't interested. I got, I know mom, i already know that, blah blah. But I made sure she heard it all, we went over body part, getting to know the vagina and reproductive system of both boys and girls, how babies are made..which she already knew a little about, and breasts. I also talked to her about the importance of keeping herself clean because she isn't always too good with that. She knew a little more about sex than I thought she did but some of things she thought were just myths, things she heard from friends. The stuff kids believe. I won't say everything. Don''t want to be here all day. Anyways, I cleared some things up and I hope she learned a little. I have a feeling though when she is 10 we will have to go over everything again. BTW, the funniest thing she said is "Mom, I hope my boobs get to be your size." LMAO.
Moving on, my daughter has her ears pierced. Her father did it when she was about 3 or 4 and I've always felt that girls shouldn't have their ears pierced until they are responsible enough to take care of them, around 12. Well it happened. Katherine left the same pair of earrings in her ear for about a month, without taking them out, without turning them, with the post pushed up against the ear, as far back as it would go. Sure enough, the skin grew around the backing. Last night she told me her ear looked swollen. I looked at it and indeed it was. Almost purple looking. Good thing the earrings are sterling silver because there was no infection. Micau had to get the tweezers to get the backings out. There was blood; there was crying. She did well. It will take about 2 months to clear up probably and I am not going to let her get her ears pierced again until she's older. Some will say it is my fault. In a way it is. I should have kept a better eye out on her ears and made sure that she was changing them. I guess I just plain forgot about them. It isn't really that big of deal now; but I hate seeing my daughter in pain and scared. Last night, she was both. Lessons learned.

Lauren's Trip to the Pool

Lauren's first trip to the pool was a few days ago. I forgot to update you all on it. She loved it. We were in the pool for about thirty minutes. She giggled and laughed. I did five or six laps around with her. She kicked her feet and bobbed her head down and almost tasted water. We went about 6.00 pm so it was nice..it was kind of cloudy so the sun wasn't out too much. She had fun. So I thought since she did so well, we would try again today. Guess what? She didn't like it when we first went in; I think she was hungry. So we got out, fed her, rocked her, and she was just enjoying being outside. It was a little windy and loves feeling the wind. Her face lit up when she felt it. So after sitting out for forty minutes we go back in. She had a blast. I walked around the pool with her again, holding her out so she could kick. She laughed and giggled. A couple of times she got scared..but she did great. We went from 11.00-12.30. I let her be in the pool about 30 min...I didn't want her out in the sun for too long because I didn't want her to get sunburned. Then we got out, got changed, ate again, waited until we were dry, then went home. I think she is definately going to be an outdoor type person. She loves it.

Taking care of the kids

You know it isn't as easy as it sounds. Sometimes when I have company over and the house is messy or when I say I stay home and take care of the kids, I get rolled eyes or gee must be nice to sit on your butt all day and watch TV. I wish these people could walk in my shoes one day. I know that I only have 2...other people have 3,4, even 5 at home all at once. I know that when my daughter gets home is when most of the housework gets done because she can help with Lauren and Kyle and that most people don't have that. I wake up at 6 to get Katie out of bed, make breakfast, feed the baby, make lunches, and have everyone out the door at 7. Sometimes Lauren goes back to sleep and will sleep until 8.30 so I will go back to sleep. Kyle wakes up anywhere between 7.30 and 8.30. I will feed the baby again, get Kyle up and fed, then its time to feed the baby again. After that, take a shower, get dressed then Kyle needs to be fed again. By this time it is close to 11. And I switch like that throughout the day. About 4/7 days Kyle takes a nap. Lauren sometimes takes a nap at the same time. I then try to read, do housework, check email, or do my blog. Most days I only have about 30 min-1 hour to get everything done or wait until Katie gets home, does her homework and then hold the baby so I can straighten up the apartment and get dinner started. Its tough. Maybe I am just bad with time management; I don't think so. But for those women out there who think that their job is better and tougher than mine...maybe it is but don't put us down for what we do or how we look because we don't wear a suit and makeup. Sometimes we don't even get to shower until 5 pm or not at all. I used to work too. I did the 40-60 hour work week. I went to school. I have the benefit of knowing both sides. I wouldn't say one is harder than the other...just different. I didn't put down women who stayed home when I worked; I don't put down working mothers. And for the guys out there who think we just sit on our butts watching tv eating bons bons..I wish. Do you have any idea the energy it takes to chase after a hyper/very active two year old and take care of a baby? Do you ever wonder why we look like shit at the end of the day or why we are so tired? Yeah, stay home one day and you'll know why. So if you ever see me out one day, hair all messed up and needing a very bad eyebrow wax, you'll know why; and if you ever come over and the house isn't exactly clean...probably because my son decided all his toys looks better in the living room on the carpet than in his room.

Period

It started this morning. Ugh. Yea, since I know I'm not pregnant (because that would really suck if I was). So I've got the bloating and the cramps and the back pain. Took pamprin; it is my friend (insert smiley face here). I forgot how horrible this darn thing is. Have to keep an eye out on the clock so you know when to change items, have to put up with the cramps, body aches, bloating, and just plain old blah feelings. Not to mention having to keep tampons/pads in your purse in case your out. I really hate it but boy aren't you glad when it comes around? LOL. Felt really fat today. So I really tried to eat right (yea right...if you believe that one then I've got ocean front property in Arizona). I'm in such a great mood..can't you tell. No seriously though, just another part of being a woman.

Overalls

Why do we buy these for our toddlers to wear when we know what a pain in the butt they are?
I bought Kyle a pair of overalls, shorts, that look so cute on him. They are Winnie the Pooh and has a cute orange shirt to match but I can put any shirt on him and it looks fine. The hooks are such a pain in the but to get on and off, and of course pulling the outfit on him is hard to do with him squirming and trying to get it off. My son loves to be naked. In fact when he isn't wearing any clothes and we are changing his diaper, he does his best to get free. After bath time, he takes off running and you literally have to chase him and hold him down to get his diaper on. And of course, while he his naked, he is playing with his penis (and this will never end because men such seemed preoccupied at all times with their equipment...it starts young). He is so fascinated with it that he gets upset the little guy has to be hidden under his diaper.
Sorry got a bit off topic there. Anyways, back to the overalls. They are just a pain in the butt. But I have to admit, he looks absolutely adorable in them. Don't you think? (pic will soon be added...haven't uploaded yet).

Veet

Since it didn't work for Katherine, we decided to use it on Micau's back. No, he doesn't have a hairy back but he does have a patch of hair on one side and then sparse hair on his shoulders. So we thought why not. Side note, why is it when men get older they grow hair in the strangest places..such as in patches on the back or in the ear and nose? So we put it on and yes, friend we pressed hard with the razor and the results.........about the same. All it does is cut the hair. It didn't remove any. So now he has a buzz patch on his back. Maybe it would work better on his leg hair. Sorry hon...u know I love you.

Cancelled Membership

Yep..had to cancel our family membership at the rec center because the daycare doesn't take babies until they are 6 months old. Which the person at the counter should have told us; of course I was dumb enough not to read the playroom rules. Also, you have to pay $2.00 for each child per hour..max 2 hours. I have no problem with that except they don't change diapers, they don't feed the children, and they don't take infants out of their car seats. If they cry for more than 20 min, they will come get you from the weight room and your money is not refunded back to you...nor does the time stop. So if I have to stop my workout, go in and change or feed kyle..the clock is still ticking. I think that is absurd. Hello people, what are you getting paid for? The manager says that if they allowed the employees to feed, change, or hold the infants then the staff would have to be a certified day care place. Umm, shouldn't you be certified to watch children? I have a problem with that. Granted it is only for an hour or two, but alot can happen in that time with young children. So, I decided to cancel the membership. I am still going to take Kyle to toddler playtime because I know that will help him out alot. Now, I will have to do my cardio either when Katherine comes home or wait until after the kiddos are put to bed. I know I won't wake up early enough in the morning. I like to sleep. LOL.

Depression

Why is this such a taboo topic with some people in our day and age? I have no clue. So I will open the door. Yes, I have depression. Especially since the past 4 weeks or so. It comes and goes but the past week or so it has really hit me. See, I have a history of depression and I used to be on meds but stopped taking them. I felt through exercise I could control it. It worked until I got pregnant. Ever since Kyle it seems to have crept up and gotten worse. Especially since with him I was on an IV; with Lauren I was seperated from my ex, had to move twice before finally moving in with Micau. Stressed about money. Stressed about having two young ones at home. Stressed about weight. And this brings me to this past week. I have gained four pounds and for some reason knowing this has put me in a very bad state. Also the fact that we have no idea exactly what we are going to do about the wedding. I have been really stressed out about what to do for some reason. It shouldn't be that way for something that originally no one was going to be at and was just going to be a JP wedding. Everything started getting complicated with no one being happy. So Micau and I decided to not decide anything this month and we will talk about next month, once everyone has gotten used to the idea and the excitement calms down. Then he said he and I will discuss what we want without worrying about what our families want. So thats okay. However, I still feel the pressure to make a decision and I have put pressure on myself to lose weight. Because of this, I think is why I gained. I know it seems crazy to let something like this affect me but it does. I feel better when I feel good about myself; right now I don't feel good about myself. Micau says I look beautiful, that I am attractive and sexy the way I am; I don't need to lose weight. But I feel like I do. So this week I am going to forget about my weight and workout because I want to; because I know it makes me feel good about me. That's what working out is for me. I get to meditate, to pray, to unwind and destress. I have made it into a weight issue. So I am not going to step on the scale this week..hopefully not next week either (I hope I can do this). The scale has become my enemy. So wish me well and if you could keep me in your prayers. Thanks.

Poopy Diapers and Shaving.

Since Wednesday the kids have been sick but it really hit thursday and friday. Both of the younger ones were tag teaming me with the dirty diapers on Thursday...I smelled like poop as did the house. Then on Friday the fevers came along with the runny nose but no the dirty diapers. Lauren's temp stayed around 99 and kyle was just more of a runny nose and coughing. The pediatric nurse was all paranoid saying we should take Lauren in to get checked out. I knew she had a cold and felt it wouldn't be necessary but soon to be hubby was worried. We didn't have a thermoter so he bought and it turns out that, as mentioned above, her fever was only 99.8. Not high enough to have to get her checked out. She seems better today. Kyle is still pretty fussy though.
On another note...my 9 yr old had her first shaving experience this morning. She has really hairy legs and started growing hair in her underarms. We bought her Veet, since it doesn't have a razor, you put the shaving cream on the area, leave it for 3 min, and then use the razor less razor to take off the hair. It did't work too well on katie's legs. We are going to try again tonight. The reason why we are letting her shave is because she is now in the 4th grade and kids can be very mean. My mom didn't let me shave until i was 12 and kids would tease me all the time about my legs. I don't want the same thing to happen to Katherine. So we decided to lt her shave. Her first step to becoming a woman...lol.

From a Friend

From a friend:

1. FIRST NAME? Natasha
2. WHO ARE YOU NAMED AFTER IF ANYONE? From the rocky and bullwinkle show
3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? yesterday...
4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? at times
5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? maple ham
6. KIDS? 9 yr old, 22 month old, 9 weeks old
7 IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Probably
8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? Just this blog and my bible study notes
9. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? yes
10. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? I think so
11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? If I could get over my fear of heights...yes
12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? too many to choose from
13. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? No
14. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? I don't think so but pple tell me all that time that I am because of what I have endured.
15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? chocolate
16. What's your shoe size? between a 6-8 depending on type of shoe and maker
17. Red or pink? neither i prefer blue
18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? my feet
19. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Person wise..my sister...body wise..perky boobs
20. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? SURE
21. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? no shoes and i am wearing my pajamas blue and white
22. LAST THING YOU ATE? pb&j sandwhich, yogurt, about 10 lays, 10 goldfish, diet drpepper
23. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? bon jovi
24. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? cerulean (sp?)...its a blue
25. FAVORITE SMELL? the way a baby smells...lol
26. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My friend barbara
27. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO? Butts
28. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Yup
29. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Blue Hawaiin punch
30. FAVORITE SPORT? Another toughie. Football
31. HAIR COLOR? Brown...all shades
32. EYE COLOR? The prettiest blue you have ever seen..lol
33. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Yes, I have poor eyesight
34. FAVORITE FOOD? chocolate and italian
35. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING? scary movies..happy endings are so blah
36. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Mr and Mrs Smith
37. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Blue and white
38. SUMMER OR WINTER? I live in a constant summer state so i will say winter but I would probably change my mind if I lived in a winter place...lol
39. HUGS OR KISSES? Big hugs from my kiddos...passionate kisses from hubby
40. FAVORITE DESSERT? chocolate
41. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? NO ONE
42. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? EVERYONE
43. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Sci-Fi collection, the Bible, What Really Matters
44. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Plain purple
45. WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST NIGHT ON TV? The Story of My Success (Mike J fox)
46. FAVORITE SOUND? My kids laughing
47. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Neither....Bon Jovi
48. GOT MILK? Does Soy count?
49. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE TALENT? I am really good at sex...love it too
50. When/where were you born? December 1,1977 at Balboa hospital in San Diego, CA
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My dinner

Last night for the first time in like a year I had KFC original chicken. I couldn't eat it when I was pregnant because it made me sick but we decided to have it for dinner. It was so good. And I love their rice. Yummy. The only problem is that when my daughter woke up around 1, I felt really sick. It was all the grease. I don't eat alot of greasy foods...french fries are about the extent...i even have a hard time eating pizza since I tend to stay away from them. So although it was yummy I am afraid I have to stick with their BLT salad. That sucks. And yes I probably gained back all the weight I lost since 1 piece of their chicken is like 600 calories or something like that. Oh well. It was worth it. Sort of.

Peace and Joy

I am currently reading a book called What Really Matters and one of the chapters in it is on peace and joy. After reading it I begin thinking about my sister. My youner sister. She and I were close when we were younger but when my parents divorced we grew apart. (It should be noted that I am adopted and she is my real sister; the family I currently call parents and siblings is my god family as I dont have a good relationship with my adopted parents). She stayed with my mom and I came here to Texas with my dad, I was 13 and she was 10. Our relationship grew worse when she came out here to stay with my dad one summer and moved here for awhile after 18. She dropped out of school. She started doing drugs when she was 11 (learned from my parents) was smoking at 11 too. She started drinking at 13. She harbored different views about how we grew up. She lied about me to our godfamily and for awhile my family and I weren't on speaking terms. As a result of her, I never knew what to expect with her phone calls. She eventually burned every bridge in the family; then she would want to talk to me about how everyone wronged her; how it is everbody elses' fault for how her life turned out. I used to blame myself for some of the things she did...after all I took care of her until I left. I potected her from so much. It got so bad with her phone calls that about 1 1/2 years ago I told her never to call me again...I didn't ever want to hear from her again. I would just get so depressed...I had to start therapy again because of our conversations. She just would not let go of the past. I couldn't handle her blaming me and everything she would ask about. She put so much stress on me. And now, when I think of her...i just think of the past 5 years..i used to think about when we were little and how much fun we would have. Swinging and singing paula abdul songs. We had fun growing up. But those memoirs seem so far away compared to current ones. We left on bad terms. Reading the chapter made me realize I long to find peace with her and made me make a decision to try to only think of the joyful moments between us and not the bad. I miss her very much and am sadden at the thought of never knowing how she is doing or if she is still alive. I pray and hope that she isn't using anymore; that she isn't drinking. ...that she really has her life together as she has said so many times. Sometimes I couldn't tell the lies apart. I miss the sweetness that she had...her wonderful smile. I love my sister and hope that one day I can repair our relationship. I love you sis...your big sis.

Missing Daughter

Today was Katherine's first day of school in the fourth grade. This is also the first year that she has to ride a bus. I am just used to taking her to school that it feels funny having her be on a bus.
I had a hard time without her. I got used her being home over the summer. I enjoyed it. She has grown up so much. I couldn't help but think back to when she was just a baby and toddler and how the years seem to have flown by. Back then it was just her and me...i was going to school full time and working 2 jobs and alot of the times she went to my classes with me. And when I didn't have a sitter to work my bosses would watch her (I worked graveyard and 2cnd shift at a conveinant store). Katherine and I have a special bond and I worry now that she is getting bigger how much of that bond will be left. When she turns 15 or so and can't go the cool party or date the boy of her dreams..the first time she says I hate you. Ugh. Not looking forward to it. I see her growing up...and it saddens me a little because I am losing my baby girl. She has always been my baby girl and sometimes I tend to baby her (spoil her) but I can't help it. She's my first and I learned so much from her. Its because of her I found my faith, its because of her that I survived school and work. Its because of her I grew up. I just really missed her today.

Warning: Sexual Content

Do you ever notice how babies/children have sex radar? It's like they know when you want to have sex or when you are actually having sex and thats their cue to bust in the room, start a tantrum, or wake up and be fussy, not wanting to fall back asleep.
Since Lauren has gotten better about sleeping this week, I thought it would be nice to have a nice dinner with wine and after putting the kids to bed have some romantic time with soon to be hubby. Well Lauren must have sensed that I was feeling frisky because not only did she stay awake from 6pm until midnight, once we put her down in the bassinet she woke back up, stayed up for another hour and then had to sleep on Micau's chest for the rest of the night. So needless to say, both of us were desperately needing a cold shower. Just to make you all laugh, a few nights back we thought of just grabbing a quickie...but no...we start kissing and my nine year old keeps wanting to tell us stuff. And then there is Kyle, who had a fever and really nasty diapers for like 3 days. Sexy stuff.
I don't mind having sex in 10 minutes if that is the only way i can get it; its just that it would be nice to get in some romance instead of okay we have 10 min before anyone wakes, pull down pants, do a wham bam thank ya mam, then shower time. There are a few things getting neglected on both sides that I have seriously considered just leaving for mexico and leaving the kids behind. Haha. No seriously. I really do think kids have sex radar.

Pics of the zoo

Here are some pictures of our trip to the zoo.

Wedding Help

It seems that everyone has gotten on board to plan a wedding for me. My sister who lives in CA is going to come down, which I didn't expect, so this good news. Also she is buying the girls dresses and my son a tux. I will leave it up to her taste to pick out something cute. My mom wants to have a bbq place to cater and hubby's mom know a lady who makes cakes. Since my parents want to throw a wedding, we decided to have it at hubby's parents place. They have a nice yard and balcony area that will be nice to have it at. Because of having an actual wedding, this means I have to wear a dress. Ugh. Kidding. Just seems like a hassle. So I have to start looking for one. Tought about ebay but because I am getting married in three months and losing weight I'm not sure what my size is going to be so I am looking at either renting a dress or buying one for real cheap...maybe craigs list or ebay; i think even david's bridal has some for around 100. I didn't expect anyone to make a big deal out of it...surprise surprise. Its a good surprise. ....its nice to know that people do care about it.

My New Business Maybe

I read Shape, Self, and Fitness and although they are great motivaters, at times I feel unmotivated by them. It seems like unless you work out like 2 hrs everyday and eat only steamed veggies and grilled salmon then you aren't going to lose weight. Its frustrating sometimes because they don't ever do kid friendly recipes or recipes that are under 30 min...well some of them are. These magazines really aren't geared toward women who can't afford the nanny to take care of the kids while going to the gym..or don't address people who cant afford the gym. So bright light came on in my head. Start my own magazine. It would be geared toward the working class family. Whatcha all think? I don't want to say too much because I haven't quite worked it all out yet. First I have to figure out if this would work, and how to get a magazine started, and how to put it all together blah blah blah. Could anyone give me tips on research? Not sure where to start with it. Does this sound like something you all would read? Let me know.
BTW, I changed the settings so that if you don't have an account with blogger you can post commnets. Thanks.

Getting Married

So we finally decided on a date to get married. It is on November 10 which is a Friday. We are not going to do anything special (with 3 kids it'd be kind of difficult). We are just going to go through a justice of the peace. Both of our parents live about 3 hours away and aren't willing to come here so we don't see the need to bother with a big one. His parents were happy that we aren't going to be living in sin anymore (they are big time Catholics) and I'm sure our church will be as well. My parents take it with a grain of salt. My relationships have a tendency to fall apart after a year and after all the controversy with this one they just aren't sure this is the right decision for me.
To update you all on my Jerry Springer life, my hubby to be is my ex boyfriend's brother. The ex and I were together for 2 yrs and went through alot of arguing and just plain dislikes of each other. We had a big blowup which caused the breakup and after some time away decided that my true love was here. His parents are okay with the whole thing but hope the brothers will still get along; which hasn't been too bad...my ex can be moody so if you catch him on a good day then everything is a-ok...catch him on a bad day and he hates the whole world. But I can be that way too. LOL.
So anyway, I just wanted to tell my buddies and anyone else reading that I am finally getting married. I am excited. Never done it before but I think it will be alright.

Update on kiddos

Lauren had her 2 month checkup yesterday which meant shots. She has been grouchy all day today. Won't sleep more than an hour. Hopefully tonight will be better. She weighed in at 11 pounds and 21 inches long. She looked good.
Kyle had his formal evaluation. On socialization he is at 5 months, on speech he is at 9 months and on motor skills he is at 18 months. So we will be having someone come once a week to work with him and to give us skills to work with him throughout the week. They also suggested having him seen by a neurologist to rule out any brain dysfunction/disorder and to also see an eye doctor for his balance (my son has very poor balance).
Katherine starts school on Monday and we still haven't gone school shopping. Oops. We meet her teacher on Friday. She is starting 4th grade. I can't believe how fast she is growing. Wow. My babies are getting to big on me. Sniff Sniff.

The Zoo

On Friday we went to the San Antonio Zoo which is about 2 hours from here depending on your speed. We get there at 8.00 am and it is already 80^ and about 90% humidity. By the time we leave (1.00) it is a full fledge 98^ and 98% humidity because it was supposed to rain but didn't. So remind me the next time we plan on going to the zoo not to do it in August, wait till Christmas where it will be a cool 90^. Gotta love this Texas weather. We are the only state in which one day it can be sunny and hot and the next hot and rainy.
Other than the heat and us being tired we had alot of fun. My son loved the elephants, although he seemed a little scared when they started stomping. He also enjoyed seeing all the birds fly and the monkeys climbing. They had an outdoor kids play area and wouldn't you know it, instead of playing in the teepee or banging on the bongo drum, he decides to play and push around his stroller. Ha Ha. Katherine loved everything especially the snake and lizard area, the cheetah, the lion, the tiger, the bears, oh my. She was really excited about everything. Of course Lauren was a bit fussy and had to be held for awhile but she finally grew tired enough to be put in her car seat and stay asleep for about 2 hours. So a four hour walk wasn't too bad.
I would post pictures of the zoo except that for some reason our camera isn't downloading to the computer so have to figure out that one. As soon as we get it working I will post some.

Body Envy

So I'm at the gym today (my apt complex has a really nice one) doing my workout being in my groove and while i'm on the treadmill a hot young thing comes in. Okay she wasn't that young (24/25) but she was smoking (hottie). She is about 5 6 and like 125 lbs and of course blonde (I'm sure its a dye job..lol). Anyways, she looks over at me and then starts pounding on the treadmill..I mean really running. Here I am just walking along..my 188 lbs walking and sweating. Well i get done and start working on my upper body and after only 10 min. on treadmill she starts doing her leg work. She starts doing these lunges and then squats and I'm trying not to be rude by staring but my god I do these and my butt looks nowhere near that firm or tight and it doesn't matter how many chest exercises I do my breast will never be that perky (or that small) ever. I feel like crap. Whenever I start feeling self-conscious I try to look in the mirror and find something about myself that I like. As I am staring in the mirror, I see the flab from having the baby (the baby pouch..u mommies know what i'm talking about) and think this what having 3 kids does, and i see how big my arms are, the fat around my chest and all the flabbiness in the butt and thigh areas. And then I look at my face and think...i have really healthy skin for someone my age, and of course my eyes are still beautiful. And I think about all the times my hubby tells me how beautiful and sexy I am and I think if he can touch my fat and think i am beautiful then I guess so can I. Afterall, I have to realize that something beautiful came out of that flabby pouch.
So when looking at young skinny beautiful women instead of feeling jealous of their bodies I am happy knowing that one day they too will have children, body fat, and sagging boobs..so to all of you 20-s0methings out there..HA HA.

My Son's Evaluation

My son was evaluated today by the ECI (early childhood intervention) today. So much paperwork. I have been concerned about Kyle's development since he seems to lag behind on a few things. After going through mounds of paperwork and them asking us a ton of questions turns out he is in alot of gray area for his age group and in the 18 month old category he scored low on fine motor skills, speech and socialization but normal on gross motor skills. On Monday she is coming back with a speech specialst and a occupational therapist to come out and interact with kyle to decide an intervention plan. Today she really didn't do much with him...just observed him while asking us questions. She is concerned about his speech and motor skills but thinks he isn't talking yet because of all the ear infections he had (he now has tubes in his ears) and thinks that may be the reason for the lag. We will know more on Monday.

Peaceful Moment

Yesterday was such a hectic day. My son was on destructive mode and was just plain hard to handle and my daughter wanted to be held all day. I did get some peace when kyle and katherine took a nap. I was holding Lauren in the rocking chair and it was so peaceful..no noise or chaos..just me and her rocking. She looked up at me with her big blue eyes and was smiling and laughing, and after about 30 minutes she fell asleep. So I just sat there holding here, looking at her and just thinking what a beautiful family I have. I felt so peaceful and proud to be amommy. Her little hand wrapped around mine and just thinking of the birth of each one of my children. How tiring the first few months are but also how joyful because they will never be this tiny again. Its so great to be a mommy knowing that you brought these wonderful beings into this world and knowing how dependant they are on you.

The Belly Button Factor

I know this seems like a funny topic but how often do you look at your belly button? I was taking a shower the other day and looked down and realized I hadn't washed my belly button in awhile (i know ewwww gross). Isn't it something that is easy to forget? Having been pregnant for nine months it poked out (i have an inny) and got cleaned while my belly was being cleaned; but having had given birth and dealing with a newborn it just sort of got forgotten. Besides me taking a shower involves jumping in and out, barely having time to wash my face before the baby starts crying or my toddler comes in screaming because he's not in the shower too. So when I have some help I do take some time to actually scrub (whoppee) and get clean and just happened to notice my belly button was probably having critters running around it throwing a party so I cleaned it out and now have to make a mental note not to forget about it next I am in the shower. So for all you new mommies out there, don't forget about the belly button.