Thursday, July 28, 2011
Most of you who know me know that i suffer from anxiety, mostly social anxiety. My therapist thought it would be a good idea to get involved with some kind of group to try to make some friends and get over my anxiety. See i don't really go anywhere except to sams, HEB, and Walmart. On sundays we have been going to the park with the kids and i do take them to the pool. But i don't really associate much with other people. I did join a parents bible study group a few months ago but that didn't turn out well. I did join a gym but there was an incident a couple weeks ago with katie and i'm embarrassed to go back..but even there i don't talk to anyone. I don't think what I need right now is to be around people. I'm so unsure of myself that i find myself annoying at times. Going to the craft show was alot for me and i was only there for 30 minutes. My therapist worries i spend too much inside the safety of my home but I think its okay. She suggested going back to church but right now i'm having issues with my faith and don't think church is the best place to be right now..besides i'm always so nervous about going that it does more harm than good. She thought about a moms day out program or play group but with the kids in school and just adam being home not sure about that. Besides with the kids in school i am going to be having to go to things there..that counts as getting out. I am happy with being at home and i think its hard for her to understand and i guess for me hard to see where she's coming from. So what do you all think? Am i super wierd for wanting to be at home instead of making friends?