Darkness

I am surrounded by darkness; it covers me like a blanket.  No light can penetrate it, no matter how hard I try to let it in. My heart is hardened for whatever reason. The darkness whispers I can not be forgiven; I am shameful; I am unloved.  I am covered in guilt, shame, sin, bitterness, anger, resentment..I am joyless.  I try to be joyful, kind, forgiving but the darkness overwhelms and I sink deeper into the darkness of the water.  It grabs hold and does not let go.  I am lost among the waves of the deep, creatures never seen torment me.  They are my judges and my punishment is never ending.  I am lost to the light never again to see it.